Aid Worker Found Some Peace

How do I accept the limits of what I can do....even before I've experienced Africa first hand. I'm going to have to settle for taking far less supplies and medicine than I wanted to for lack of funds. But I realized that no matter how much I was able to do (even if I'd been able to bring the 10 bags I originally planned), when I get there it will feel like I'm spitting in the wind. So, the task is to spit in the wind and find purpose and satisfaction in the miniscule difference you can make. It will mean something to the kid that gets antibiotics that stops the heart valve damage that untreated Strep infection can cause. So, I let it go. I had my first peaceful day in several weeks on the couch with a good mystery book yesterday. I think I'm on to something.